My Bitchings.

draintheblood_x @ 2005-05-23T22:03:00

2005-05-24T02:07:20Z

Sometimes when I'm alone,
I cry,
'Cause I am on my own.
The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form.
I cry because my heart is torn.
I find it difficult to carry on.
If I had an ear to confide in,
I would cry among my treausured friends,
but who do you know that stops that long
to help another carry on?
The world moves fast and it would rather pass by
than to stop and see what makes one cry.
So painful and sad.
And sometimes, I cry
and no one cares why.

draintheblood_x @ 2005-05-12T19:14:00

2005-05-12T23:12:51Z

I fuxed Josh and it was fun.

draintheblood_x @ 2005-05-05T00:13:00

2005-05-05T04:11:57Z

You Belong in 1979

1979

If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

"And will you fuck me when I'm dead?" - AAR

2005-05-05T04:03:00Z

Just got home from the All American Rejects show.
So here's how it went down.

I went with Aislinn, and when we got there we could barely see the stage we were so far back. After a while of waiting Hellogoodbye came on. They were really good, except for this one song with a banjo, I was like what the hell. And then the banjo strap broke<3. The crowd was like, not moving, so me and Aislinn were just chillin' in the back waiting for something to happen. Then, they were off, we were like snap, AAR, AAR. But then some girls in front of us were like "There's another band." I was like *snore*.

This next band was Armor For Sleep. I don't think I could have snored through that shit. Okay, so they start playing, and all of a sudden these strong ass, stoned ass, violent ass guys appear, and there's this huge fucking moshpitt. Okay, so I want to get to the front of the stage, so I push my way in and stay in the pitt for the whole fucking 8 song set. They played more than AAR. So, that's the biggest, baddest pitt I've ever seen/been in. It was fucking CRAZY. I couldn't breathe, stand, anything, and there was a circle pitt RIGHT BEHIND ME so I got a hella punches to the back, and I got a fat lip. But it was fucking AWESOME. Even though they were like "And now we have 3 more songs" and I was like "oh god, i can't make it through three more i'm surely gonna fall down/die in this next one." But I made it through, even though I feared for my life a little bit. But that was still awesome.

After that, I found myself in like, the 3rd row from the front. People were still pushing and shoving, even though no band was playing. We waited, and waited, and waited, the Rejects took their time. So I was talking to a couple people, one of whom happened to be this really, really, tall ass guy. Points for me, he kind of let me push past him once they started playing, so I got to the VERY VERY VERY front, like on the ledge right in front of where security stands. I've never been that up front at a concert before, eekeke.

So I talked to these 2 girls and the tall guy for a while, and there were these drunkass girls asking us about what we were gonna do for cinco de mayo. Then finalllly AAR came on, and just my luck Nick Wheeler, possibly the sexiest man alive currently, OH MY FUCKING GOD is he fucking sexy. So, descriptions of the band: Tyson Ritter, oh my god does he need to lay off the drugs. He didn't look bad, but he was SO thin and just junkie looking. He was wearing a green tank top, and when they came out for the encore I saw quite a bit of that ass. Chris the drummer, he looked just like he does always, he has this AAR tattoo right above his boobeh. Nick Wheeler, oh my god *dies*. He like, blow dried his hair, and oh my god he came in front of me and did his solo TWICE and made the sexiest rockstar pouty face and holy shit he touched me and I touched him and we're getting married and having 2.5 children NOW. Holy shit. And he was just wearing this jacket with no shirt. Oh my god he is H-O-T, H-O-T, NICK IS THE LIFE FOR ME. Ajsdlfk. And then the other guitarist, whom sadly I don't know the name of was in front of me the whole time, since I was like, at the VERY front of the stage with only ONE person in front of me, it was fucking awesome. Not like I could breathe or anything, and I kept nearly passing out on the girl in front of me, but whte the fuck ever it was amazing.

They played a couple songs, not enough at all. They played Swing Swing, the Last Song, Your Star, Paper Heart, Time Stands Still, and I think 2 others from the self titled CD. Then they played 2 new songs, one of which is going to be their next single and they said that it was the first time they'd ever played it:)Well I couldn't really breathe, and I was hitting everyone and jumping on them because I'm a moron, hehe. Everyone was like "where's the big ass guy doing that this time?" And I was like *waves*. Anyway, they were fucking awesommmme.

And the whole show was fucking awesome as well. And being that close to the stage, and that close to the band, and Nick coming over and doing his pouty lipped rockstar face guitar solo twice right in front of me, that was just 2309482039. And after the show, I was talking to this girl, and guess what? She had the set list! So she gave me a tiny piece, well I got most of the tape they used to tape it on the floor, and a little piece of paper that says "The Last Song" on it.

Great show:)

<3 Raz.

P.S. We did the junkie clap =)

I won't forget the day that I found God//In a kitchen knife and on my arm.

2005-05-02T00:27:51Z

Well, I guess it'd be nice to update this damn thing once every 7 years.
So what have I done in the past like, 3 months?
NYC trip with the class. Tres fun.
Last dance of the year was on Friday. Tres fun aussi.
I'm seeing the All American Rejects on Wednesday.
I'm graduating in like, a month and a few days. Is that not awesome? I got a sweet ass dress. But it makes me look fat, opposed to the simple, not that sweet-ass dress that was flattering on me. Whatever, I'm rambling.

So, Bryan was all "look it's something called quizilla wtf i'm slow" and so then I went on quizilla again in attempt to avoid my english homework, which I REALLY need to get done. But then, I like screwing myself over.

So, here's lame ass Raz and Quizilla things.
Your PUNK! You have your own style, and the ruler
of your click. Love your converse, head
banging,and possible skateboard! Your my hero!

Are you a Vampire/Goth/Punk/Poser/Emo/ or just a plain PREP!?
brought to you by Quizilla

lmfao. I am so unbelievably preppy. If anyone from last year saw me they'd throw stones at the freaky cheerleader Abercrombie model.

You are Lamentations.

Which book of the Bible are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

No clue wtf that is, because you know I'm such a fervent reader of the bible.

draintheblood_x @ 2005-03-01T22:07:00

2005-03-02T03:09:59Z

Cause everything is nothing, and emptiness is in everything.
This reality is really just a FUCKEDUPDREAM.
With the flesh and the blood that you call your soul;
Flip it INSIDEOUT.

My day was great, how bout you? Had a couple snow days and things.
And whoop-de-doo, I feel like shit.

No need to elaborate, I only write this thing so I remember things, and there's really nothing to remember.

Love,
Raz.

PS, old school papa roach > new school papa roach?

draintheblood_x @ 2005-02-04T23:52:00

2005-02-05T04:53:03Z

Lix had some entry from like June that said "As raz would say, cheers + i love hanson".
I miss Lix and Cat and everyone so bad.
So fucking bad.

Lix, if you read this, don't go anywhere this summer. Cause I have to see you or I'll hang myself in my shower with my bathrobe strap.

Good night.
Zaria.

like a BULLET through a FLOCKOFDOVES.

2005-01-30T15:02:01Z

I got a Venus Divine razor.
It's the shit.

draintheblood_x @ 2005-01-22T14:27:00

2005-01-22T19:31:43Z

so nutz.
hfs is b-b-b-b-b-b-ack.
YEAH WHAT.
it's snowing.

and i LOOOOVE shovelling snow, so i just went out to shovell, and then when i was coming back in, all the nice paths i made were all covered again:(
i cleaned the car with my hands.
and now my hair is wet.
anyway, who wants to check out my sexy i <3 nerds shirt?
you do.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v99/dynamite_sushi/nerdcore.jpg

was at communist sidwell all day yesterday.
all these guys were like UNNNH YOU AHVE A DROPKICK MURPHYS SHIRT CAN I FUCK YOU.
and all these guys invited me to the st albans dance but then i'm not in 10th grade so i cant go and then they were like "pshh you're young" *walks away*

:(

i want to go to that school. then i went to one of the churchy schools interviews.
DOWNTOWN SINGAPORE are/were on the front page of purevolume and had an ad in AP. so go check them famous shits out.

www.purevolume.com/downtownsingapore.

and that is all.
goodnight.

p.s. www.purevolume.com/oddzar , www.purevolume.com/fairveronamd yay.

I have the Action Action CD, and you're jealous.

2005-01-20T03:28:02Z

It snowed today.
Moronic Texans walking around with cowboy hats, and limos and fur and dresses next to huge Bush portraits in shop windows. Boo Inauguration.

Would someone like to tell me what the FUCK is it with Texans and Jesus?
Went to a museum today.
School interviews alllll day tomorrow and Fruddeh.

I heard 2 ver-y funny Mexican jokes today.
Want to hear?
Okay, I'll write them because I remember them.
[edit] I deleted them. People might be getting all up in my grill about being racist and such.

Good night folks.

draintheblood_x @ 2005-01-16T17:57:00

2005-01-16T22:57:23Z

im in new yorrrrk.
and and and.
i met lizzzzz.
and and and.
tres much else.
what what what?
love,
raz.;

draintheblood_x @ 2005-01-11T18:00:00

2005-01-11T23:01:08Z

I'M ON UPPERS.

i'm hiddenIN[plain]v i e w.

2005-01-09T19:38:57Z

Morning, onions.
Haven't updated in zonks and more.
Exams next week, I kissed a store mannequin yesterday.
Underscore are dead, and that makes me VERY sad. Phil has a new band, who are almost even better than U_, and they're called fair verona and go to www.purevolume.com/fairveronamd and SUCK IT AND WEEP, BITCHES.
Hee.
I'm out, homedizzles.
I'll post a picture of me when I get my ass downstairs because I have a pimptacular new shirt just for examtime.
Love,
Zaria.

Hey Dad, Where Ya Been For So Long//

2004-12-13T03:37:23Z

Cat's back in HK <333333.
I am SO glad I can talk to her again.
I missed you, GaythFace.

Skipped school on Friday, had an interview at Maret. Mom made me go to some catholic girls school with nuns walking around. I did a shitty application essay for them, hope I don't get in.
SSAT on Saturday, hope I didn't fuck that one up. Went to GDS, liked that immensely, mom didn't.
Today I... wrote application essays. I live a crazy wild life. I met Andy in the park, though. And I got a cute skirt from Urban Outfitters, and it's pink and has a flower on it.
But I bet you the morons at school will say it's goth.

<3,
Raz

HFSmas Nutcracker 2004. Bitch.

2004-12-05T06:43:09Z

I just got home, and of course you ALL care about what went down.

Alright. First up were Keane, and I wasn't a Keane fan before, but my god they were GOOD live. And my mom was swooning over them. And the keyboardist was damn fine with his spazzture. Next was MCR, and they were awesome, and by that time people were coming.
In front of us there were these two guys who were fucking PLASTERED, and after a while one of them fell over onto me and it was like woah damn, but I was sitting next to these two toughass guys who were threatening them with violence if they came back to their seats.
Breaking Benjamin were AMAZING live. They got everyone so energized like woah damn <3.
Chevelle was on, and they were pissing me off by being repetitive and boring so I ventured out to go to the bathroom, and it was the nastiest stankass bathroom ever with fucking URINALS in it and a line that was like 20 minutes long.
But on the plus side I actually saw Steve Sievers in PERSON like a couple feet from me, but he had this whole gang of people around him so I didn't venture near. Hey, that's a major celebrity spotting and being-near-to for me. I mean, he gets down with Billy.
Holy shit, Billy was there.
Oh my.
Annnyway. Chevelle sucked and yeah. Then was the Killers and I was madly in love and woah damn<333, but the guy was dressing like Joel did sooo 2 weeks ago. But they were mad hot good. And all these people got shitty short sets, GC and Velvet Revolver got the normal length sets.
Then was Franz Ferdinand, and the tough guys thought it was funny when I booed extremely loudly. And then they joined in and I was like <3.
Oh, we made a game out of who tripped over on the stairs the funniest. Seriously, EVERYONE tripped up right next to our row.
Our seats were directly in front of the stage. The section was the farthest away from the stage, but the one with the best view, and row E's pretty good I guess. And the HFS thing was right in front of us and I was like Eep Tim Virgin just killed me.
Then it was Jimmy Eat World who got me VERY excited, and they were awesome and good and stuff.

And FINALLY after FIVE hours, it was GC. Two awesomest quotes of the night: [of course, joel's the only one who talked]
"Everybody from Maryland say YEAAAAH. Everybody from Virginia say YEEEAAAAH. Everybody from Washington say UNH YEAH WHAT."
And.
"I want to see everyone stand up and sing for this song, I don't care if you're drunk."

And he humped stuff so much I was sickened.
He humped santa, and then he rubbed his towel between his legs and threw it to the crowd.

Benji had his ridiculous ugly hair [which is too similar to Spinner from Degrassi's current "hairstyle"]but his bandernana was kind of fetching. Paul was mean to Sam so he can go to hell. Chris was hidden, and Billy was all "I'm an artist".

But as a WHOLE GC were fucking amazing. A-mazing. The best of the night. Their performance was just awesome. They played blah songs:
Anthem
Lifestyles
Festival Song [They got their big break thing at the HFStival, they wrote Festival Song about it, recorded the Festival Song vid at another HFStival. This was the HFSmas Nutcracker, so I guess they're pretty much the same-ish thing]
World is Black
SOS
Hold On
I just wanna live.

And they got the MOST lighters of the night. Seriously.

And I don't know what the hell you all are talking about when you're like "all these 14 year old girls like good charlotte" Because I saw SO many 20-ish year old large muscular guys with GC paraphanelia on, and Tough Guy #2 sitting next to me knew EVERY WORD to EVERY SONG, and Tough Guy #1 gave them the biggest applause, and he didn't sit down until I sat down, which was like 5 minutes after they left the stage.
But jesus, that was amazing.

I got a GC hoodie:)
And an MCR shirt and an HFS beanie. And I got a hug from the christmas tree.

Last band of the night Velvet Revolver made us wait FORTY MINUTES or something. Then their cocky asses FINALLY get onto stage and the HFSdude is like "Putting the Punk back in Punctuality".
Oh please.

But it was so amazing to see Duff's blondie-ness, Slash, slash SLAAAAAASH, Scott being ACTUALLY as thinass as he seems and strutting around and stripping and yelling things through a bullhorn/loudspeaker.
And they had like 20 amps and the hugest fucking drum kit ever, and like 45 tech people.
Pssht, I left after the song after Fall To Pieces, because apart from Fall To Pieces, all their songs kind of sucked. But FTP was aaamaaazzzinng.

Oh, and I ripped a piece off the banner that was draped somewhere, so now I have that.

Thanks for reading:)
<333
Raz

Just like a lady in a blue dress, You've got cigarettes on your breath.

2004-12-04T02:07:20Z

What's up donkeys.
Week's over, but not really. Have to write my history paper by tomorrow morning. Am so screwed.
Nutcracker's TOMORROW, hell yes fool.
No clue when I'll get this crapload of homework done, but ehh.
What happened this week? Well, lets see. Class average on the honors algebra test? 96 fucking percent. [which I got *shows off*] but damn. I really need to be demoted or something. Seeing as I have no life, I haven't done much.

And Mike's at a party with the whore, and that's not good now, is it. The whore's going to get him drunk and then what.

I got the Senses Fail CD this week:) Aren't you caring about that. Umm, well I suck at life, so that's pretty much all...

Happy Chrismukkah.
Love,
Razbear.

Guess who's BACK with a brand new RAP.

2004-11-26T16:35:21Z

Morning Minions.
How are you all doing? Are you all fine and good? Okay then.
Happy Thanksgiving. We intruded on mom's friend's family gettogether like thing, and I talked about Laguna beach for a full two hours [after seeing 2 episodes] with one of the 23094820348203 25 year olds.
I got banned from Naptown for saying I'd bomb some girl's house, it was permanent, then for 2 months, then Anne unbanned me after 2 days, then the next day I got re-banned, probably cause Mantha[orjackie] were like "why the fuck is she unbanned] What amazingly interesting drama.

Life is good, and so is your mom.
I shall update this thing more often, you get fat and old and die.
Cheers,
Raz.

P.S.
Check out underscore:
www.underscorerock.com
www.myspace.com/underscore
www.purevolume.com/underscore.

So looong and goood niiiiight.

We're All To Blame//

2004-10-16T12:08:17Z

Yo Dizzawgs.
I went to da MALL last night, omgee.
And I got SOCKS, omgee.

And I went to WETSEAL omgee.

Kay.

I miss Avril.
And I had a dream about Cat's house.
I'm sad =(
Oh no!

Ferzana's husband died, that's not good.
Call the fire brigade.

POE-LEESE RESCUE FBI SHE WANTS A RYOT.

Cause I KNOW my

[size=8] BEH-BEH [/size]

would do anything foh meh.
YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

Gnite.
<3
Razzeh.

If you fall, I will catch you, time after time//

2004-10-10T12:59:41Z

So, this is the way the shit rolls.
I was suppposed to see GC in Rockville on Friday.
So, i got mom to line up for me when I was at school.
First 300 people get in, mom was 302.

Could have gone back later and gotten in, but instead I did anything.

This conversation's still dead on arrival.

Love,
Raz.

Anti Flag Owns You//

2004-09-25T13:42:43Z

Hrrm. Razzy got Benjeh and Billeh and Christ's autographs.
I touched Mole.
That is all.

Goodnight.

Ehh, since then nothing eventful has happened.
Weehee, just making sure I didn't dieeeeeeeeee.

I'm getting away with murder//

2004-09-16T00:19:59Z

Lyke OH. MY. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
Raz is UPDATING, fo SHIZ, beeatch.
Look at my cristal up in da criiiiiiiiiiiib where I chill wid mah bitches and peepz, me and mah dawgs get dizz-own in mah CADILLAC ESCALADE.

So. School is= CLONE CLONE CLONE BLONDE-PASTEL-COLORED-SKIRT CLONE CLONE. The classes are SHIT hard, and I have so much damn homework. The 7th graders are cool, and it's actually not THAT bad, it's getting better. Last week sucked, but it just moderately sucks now.

And, I have the GC SHOW IN THREE FREAKIN' DAYS to look forward to.
Three.
Days.
Biatch, it's G to the mothafuckin' C.

That is my little song of parading.

Love,
Hardcore Raz.

I don't practice Santa Ria, I ain't got no crystal ball//

2004-09-08T00:11:14Z

BIG SHOUT OUT TO MAH OLDBUTT HOMIE CHEMMMMMM E00000000000000000000000000000T

EVERYBODY IN THE CLUB GETS TIPSY
CUZ WE GONNA PAHTAY LIKE IT'S CHEMS BIRFDAIIII!

School was the most horrible thing. Ever.
I just wrote a 2059823095820985203 page email to Josh and a 102093805298092 page one to Cat.

Or the other way.
But still.

It still sucked very badly.

And I'm tired.
So it's bedtime at 8:11 pm.

Your lipstick, his collar

2004-09-05T12:58:01Z

I'm feeling a bit blue today, boys.
Jyahahhahaha. *cackles madly to self*
Man, I even talk like I'm on naptown when I'm not. I needs to get a life.
Hrmm. On Wednesday, I went to... Vanity Fair with Grete, and on Thursday I went to Jenns house and we went to WALMART (represent) and I got Virgo panties because I'm hardcore, and she stole this PIMP JACKET I'M GOING TO STEAL FROM HER from some crap store, and I got a punk Spongebob bracelet.

Are you ready?
Yes, Yes Captain.

Spongebob is so damn X-Rated.
I wonder how that sponge fares in bed.

On Friday I saw without a paddle with Grete and her friend Eero who's obsessed with Megadeth (hell, at least he likes music. brownie points, cha-ching.) and Matthew Lillard looked very hot.

Only because he brought up SLC Punk memories. I thought he was Johnny Knoxville for a while for some weird damn reason.

Mommy got me Ramones panties to match my shirt, because I'm SPECIAL like a STAR!

Hrrm.
Yesterday, I did nothing.
Because I'm still special like a star, and special like a star people sit around because they have no friends.

Happy birthday ALIX,
your name causes a dilemma,
please finish this song for me.

Anyway, that is my mad funning life.
School starts on Tuesday, and I really don't fucking want to go. I have determined that all I do in my spare time is listen to music or talk about it, and my brain stores too many damn songs and not much else.

This was determined by Grete, after meeting me for like an hour after a year.

This is ALSO why I'm not going to make any friends at the suburban prep school I'm going to (Norwood).

Goodbye to you, goodbye to everything that I knew, you were the one I loved, the one thing that I TRIED (warbly voice) to hold on tooooo.

Hoooooold Onnnnn if you feel like letting gooooooooooooo.

Go away YOU try to take the best of me...

Enough.
Peace, yoze.

Vitamin R//

2004-08-28T16:11:59Z

Yesterday was my buffday. Woke up, went on naptown, went to my sisters, got 200 bucks and a bean bag chair, came home, went on naptown, went to sleep.

My sister's over here now, and Sarabi is being so cute. She likes my Rancid posters:p what a little ponk.

Guys, You HAVE to vote for Good Charlotte AS MUCH as possible.
Everybody vote AT LEAST once for LP, for Chem, and FIVE TIMES for GC. For Meh.

http://www.mtv.com/onair/vma/2004/nominees/index.jhtml?catID=528

The awards are tomorrow. Do me proud.

Love,
Mole Goat.

You know You're Right//

2004-08-26T15:41:02Z

You are all slaves.
And I am a pirate.
Whore.

Happy birthday to Chem soon!
I did not tell you that 2 nights ago I stuck an earring through my ear? So I have 3 on one ear and 2 on the other. But I made up a bullshit story to mummy this morning, and she has made me take it out.
Gah-urr. I shall not let it close, shall I not.

I also got pink and black Gallaz yesterday and 2 pairs of Dickies :)
And at Icing (some branch of claire's) they had TWO GC WRISTBANDS *is dying*

Now, you guys, I need you to do me a big favor. There are THREE days left till the VMAs, (And one day till my birthday =)) and Good Charlotte are slipping for Viewer's Choice.
I need you to stop that from happening.

http://www.mtv.com/onair/vma/2004/nominees/index.jhtml?catID=528

Good Charlotte, people.

Cheers,
The Raz.